I Want To Die
I want to die because i am not foolish enough to be able to be happy in this world but not smart enough to make a difference.
I want to die. Of course if you re suicidal you do want to die or more specifically to end your pain through death but if you simply want to die you may not be actively suicidal. I want to die because i cannot solve my problem which is most people in the world and their dependence on an infinite growth socio economic belief system that is non conducive to sustained organised life. It was easier to joke about it then say that i was struggling. I would always make jokes about dying or wanting to die.
The problem is that you are suffering. So now you know you only have x amount of time to live knowing that you will die soon do what you want to do with the little time you have left. Please understand that wanting to die and being suicidal are both serious and dangerous but i would suggest they are not the same. The way i see it you want to die anyway so why not just do what you want to do or at least take yourself away from the situation for a year.
The thought i want to die usually comes up when people are in so much psychological pain that they feel they can no longer bear it. If you have a mental disorder there may be an amazing new treatment that you don t even know about. If it makes it easier promise yourself you will kill yourself in 1 year 3 years or what ever. This pain is often made worse by thoughts of being a burden to others or not belonging anywhere.
I would also say i don t want to be here anymore mahtya m. We understand how terrible this pain feels and we want to help make it tolerable for you. You need to take a look at yourself from the inside out and work towards making positive changes. The key is getting yourself in touch with the right people for help.